colony_brat | Don't Go Into The Light

[Voice]

[The journal clicks on and Duo's voice is strong but almost airy. It's almost like he's not paying attention to what he's doing. His eyes are glazed and distant in the little picture.]

I just wanted to let everyone know that I love Hijiri Minase. I love everythin' about him from his strong, calloused, violin-playin' fingers to his slight body to his hypnotizing, green eyes. I love the devilish side of him that flirts and plays just as much as I do. I love the way he accepts my bloodied hands and flirtatious attitude. I love how jealous he can be and how he saves himself just for me. He makes me feel special. I want to stay in this place just to be with him and to hell with my world. I wake up from nightmares where I had to return and never see him again. I wanna take care of and please him more than I've wanted anyone else. I really feel like a servant to him, but I'm happy with it. I feel needed again.

[There's a pause and he almost sways for a moment before he speaks again.]

I'm sorry, Has. It'll probably hurt you to hear that, but it's all true. I still care 'bout you, but it's different. I'm still here for ya and I still love ya in a way like how I love Kam. Don't hate me for this.

[The journal never really turns off. Duo just wanders away to do his usual morning stuff including a shower and going shopping for stuff for Azzip. After a while of silence, the journal apparently gets bored and turns itself off.]

(ooc: That's right people. Curiosity might have killed the cat, but it hypnotized the pilot. He was out for his morning run (which now happens in the dark since the days are so short) when he saw the swinging light. Like a good soldier, he tried to gather intel before rushing in... that means he stared at it for too long. Duo hates the word love and even worse, he hates being public about it. I figured this was the most out of character thing he could do. Still, it's all true so there you go. Duo will think this was a dream if he's questioned, but the entry's been blocked from deletion by his own hacking skills. It's not going anywhere even after he finds out about it.)

Current Mood: groggy
Current Location: Azzip

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From:

akumanotrill

... [can't help but feel slightly amused now...]

And you said all that stuff about what you love about me and how you never want to go back to your world and how you like serving me... lots of things. You might have mentioned Haseo at one point...

Well, it sounded a lot like you... and came from your journal. You could check.

From:

colony_brat

.... [and cue the flurry of page turning, the sound of him playing the entry, and then he starts talking to himself] What the shit? Why would I say this. Well it's true, but that's not the point. I gotta get this off. I gotta... what the hell do ya mean it won't delete? [page tear] What the fuck do ya mean that didn't get rid of it? Damn thing. ... I did what? That's my code... shit shit shit... dammit! I hate magic shit!

[and now he's just panting with his head on the counter next to the journal] It won't go away. It looks like me and it sounds like me... I thought it was a dream. It's all foggy so it had to be a dream. But it's here. I could still be dreaming. Doesn't feel like a dream no. [there's a thud] Ow! Really don't think it's a dream now. That hurt.

From:

akumanotrill

[and he waits and listens, taking this time to go wash up and get dressed to go down to Azzip before Duo hurts himself. He smiles a bit to himself when Duo says it's true. He leaves the house and sets off for the marketplace]

Well, it wasn't a dream and stop that or I'll have to restrain you.

From:

colony_brat

I just wanted ta know if it was a dream. It's not even gunna bruise. 'sides, I don't seem ta be usin' my brain anyway. Why the hell would I do that? I wasn't drunk this mornin'. Hell, I wouldn't do that when I was with the Sweepers. I sure as hell wouldn't get that drunk here.

From:

akumanotrill

[and enters Azzip]

I dunno. You sounded... hypnotized or something.

From:

colony_brat

[Duo's in the kitchen and folded at a 90 degree angle with his head resting on the counter near his journal and his butt kind of sticking out.] Why would I be hypnotized? I thought ta stuff was all made up. Then again, thought vampires didn't exist either. I don't even know what ta do now. I can't get rid of it. I guess I could chuck everyone's journals in the lake, but I'm pretty sure I'd have a hard time gettin' them away from everyone.

From:

akumanotrill

[goes over and rest his head on his arms on the counter to look at him] I dunno. ...but people have been talking about some strange person in the woods. You didn't meet him on your morning run, did you?

You could just leave it?

From:

colony_brat

... I don't remember talkin' ta anyone with pie if that's what ya mean. [There's a pause as he thinks about it.] I think... I think I remember a light out there. I was thinking there might be a pixies or maybe Salt out there. The fairy doesn't exactly glow, but he coulda been playin' his trumpet. Fire magic and stuff. I don't really remember anythin' after that. I was kinda guessin' about the shower and stuff. I'm clean and I got fresh stuff so I assumed I did everythin' I usually do.

... Do you want me to?

From:

akumanotrill

[listens carefully] You don't remember anything after seeing the light? ...that could have been it then.

[moves closer] Mn. I want you to. So I can listen to it again whenever I want.

From:

colony_brat

They're not like memories. They're like dreams. It's all foggy and wonky and stuff. Just like a dream. Maybe it was. But why would a light make me say that stuff?

[He's still talking into the counter.] If it makes you happy. I can't make it private... I hope ya don't mind share it with everyone else...

From:

akumanotrill

I don't know... but it apparently did.

[puts an arm round him and presses a kiss to his temple] Mn. I'm very happy right now. It's not every morning that I wake up to hear you say all those nice things about me.

From:

colony_brat

[He just groans painfull in reply.]

Yeah, and ya shouldn't wake up to it again which sucks, but- well ya already know all that. You're happy so I'll just have ta be happy too.

From:

akumanotrill

[stops himself from smiling]

Mn. I've very, very happy. [hugs him close]

From:

colony_brat

[Duo turns and stands up so he can hug Hijiri back and nuzzle into his neck.] I just can't believe I did that.

[Nuzzles some more and licks at his neck.] You smell good.

From:

akumanotrill

[rubs his back comfortingly] As long as every word you said there is true...

[laughs at that] I did just have a shower. Used a new soap I've found. It's peach. Like it~?

From:

colony_brat

[Duo nods and flutters his wings a bit so the light seems to sink into the dark feathers.] I may run and hide, 'specially from shit like this, but I never lie, and certainly not to you. I meant it.

Mmmm... yeah. Smells good. You taste good. [Duo keeps dragging his tongue along Hijiri's neck.]

From:

akumanotrill

Mn. I believe you.

[chuckles softly] You're hungry already~? But I thought you said you were tired from your last meal~

From:

colony_brat

Good.

[Duo chuckles too as he noses Hijiri's shirt out of the way to reach the hallow of his throat.] Doesn't mean I can't enjoy a little more. We could stop, but breakfast tastes so good~

From:

akumanotrill

It really has been a very difficult week for you ne... I wouldn't mind a bit of breakfast I guess...

From:

colony_brat

Rather you not remind me. It was bittersweet and not havin' you just made it harder. I won't make ya, bright eyes. If you're tired, I could make a real breakfast instead.

From:

akumanotrill

It's okay... it was a bit difficult for me too... [wraps his arms round Duo]

From:

colony_brat

She's happy though, isn't she? You shouldn't feel as bad anymore. [Duo stops his licking and just holds Hijiri with his nose still in Hijiri's neck.]

From:

akumanotrill

She is... ...my parents were here too... actually... [rests his head against Duo's]

From:

colony_brat

I... you played for 'em, didn't you? I'd forgotten. I was kinda on auto-pilot this week. Did ya have a nice visit with 'em? [Duo's not willing to show he's worried about Hijiri yet.]

From:

akumanotrill

Mn. I did. ...then Quatre came over and we played for them together, though I asked them to hide so they wouldn't scare him. Ryuhou's mother was here too and his girlfriend! [laughs a bit] Ryuhou actually had a girlfiend before! It was a bit of a surprise... guess we shouldn't underestimate him~

They said they were proud of me... [falls silent as he just leans against Duo]